This was the first photograph I ever took.
I don’t mean that it was the first time I took a picture…it was simply the first time I saw beyond just capturing the obvious. I was 19 years old, on a 3 month NOLS course, just done a 3 week stint of winter camping in Idaho’s Palisades, and beginning a month of desert canyoning in the Dirty Devil river basin of southeast Utah. It was the second week of March, and you can probably imagine our euphoric sensations as we were truly, I mean truly experiencing our first spring. Shedding our winter camping layers and putting on shorts and short sleeves rekindled our spirits…no more need to constantly focus on keeping insulated, warm and dry!
So that’s where we start, sitting on a warm boulder in the late evening sun high above our campsite, watching the bustle of our 12 person group in the midst of preparing dinner, setting up tarps, getting water from the river. (Speaking of which, The Drity Devil River is a tributary of the Colorado River and get it’s name from the unusually large amount of silt in the water, so we quickly learned to let the water settle before drinking or cooking with it. But on this night we had not yet gained that insight…so crunchy couscous it was). As I sat and watched and wrote in my journal, I looked up from time to time to watch the majestic canyon walls rising up all around me, and the light began to change. The shadows became longer. The rock more orange. And once my instructors set up their Black Diamond tarp, I saw my shot. I just needed a little bit of time to let the shadows mature.
I grew bored with my journal. I watched Mary and John (our two instructors) go through their well practiced evening routine. They had been guiding and sharing their lives for some time, and they had achieved a fluidity that is rare to witness amongst two people, both in their personal interactions with each other and their joint group presence. I was envious of them, right down to my bones. And still am now. I could probably do that one day, couldn’t I? Who knows, but…the shadows had grown and reached their potential! I grabbed my Minolta XG-M, set it on my overturned boot, and captured my first photograph. It was back in the days of film, so I wasn’t sure if I had gotten anything, but that was the first time I felt even a little bit like a photographer. I loved that image when I saw it for the first time. I blew it up and made a big print for my dad. But I’ve looked at it so much that I’m not sure about it anymore, funny how photographs change. Photographs can lose their visual appeal, but they never lose the ability to transport you back to the moment.





























































































